Play dates and fertility meds!

Yesterday, Michelle had a play date with her friend Conor. He is the son of my friend Carri, and is only two weeks younger then Michelle. We get together a lot and hang out, normally at her house, since she runs a day care, and has a couple of babies she watches. So we had a blast. Michelle loves playing with Conor. They are so cute together. I also got to try a Wii for the first time. man, those things are so cool. I told Mike I wanted one for Mother's day. It is such a fun work out! I am a huge video game nerd, I know.

The other exciting thing is I started my fertility medicine today. I take it until Tuesday. I am very excited, and nervous. It is a big step forward, so I am happy!!!

Well, someone is asking me for snuckles, and I can't resist that offer! Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

Bowling!

Today was an awesome day! I had a Dr's appointment today, and I got fertility meds!!!! We have been trying so long, and my body was not cooperating at all. So, finally, all of the changes I have made seems to have made a big difference! It is so exciting to know that there is a good chance of something happening.

After the Dr, we took Michelle bowling for the first time. It went so amazing. We expected the worst, like not being able to finish a full game, but we got through 2, and probably could have done a 3rd had it not been for wanting to get home cause of bad weather. It was awesome since she had gotten up at 9:30, which is really early for her, and she hadn't had a nap. She seemed to have a ton of fun, and she caught on very fast. She even knew when it was her turn, or Mama or Dada's.

I am going to try to add some pictures. Sorry for bad quality, I forgot my camera, so we had to use a disposable.

Good Life

Yes, it really is after 3 AM when I am writing this... lol. To me, it is still really early. Thank goodness Michelle sleeps in until 11 or later still. Well, sometimes she gets up about 10, but still.

Anyways, this is going to be a serious entry. I know, shockingly, I can be serious! Sometimes I forget.

The last couple days, I have been feeling really lucky. I try to not take for granted all that I have, but sometimes something happens that really makes you step back and truly see what you have. Both of my sisters played a big part in that. Heath writes a blog that I read. Her latest entry about being sick the last couple days, but still feeling lucky about how she doesn't have any serious health problems made me appreciate my families good health so much more. She also raised a good question of if any of us would ever donate eggs for people to have kids. Many of you know about my PCOS and that we have been trying to have another baby for the last year and a half. Her question made me feel grateful that we are not to the point in trying that we need to consider that. I am so young, and we have so much time/options to try. And, honestly, as much as I would love another 3 or so kids, I have Michelle, and she is so perfect and healthy, I don't feel like I am missing anything. When Mike and I talked and decided to start trying, I told him that it wasn't that I felt like I was missing anything, it was just that I loved him and Michelle so much, that my heart grew so much bigger, and there was room in it for us to have another baby. I know that sounds super lame, but that honestly is how I feel. And even if some days I get sad/depressed about how my body doesn't do what a woman's body should do, all I have to do it look around, and watch Michelle as she plays and smiles and laughs, and I remember all I have been blessed with.

My sister Jess keeps me positive. She also has PCOS, and the fact that she has 5 gorgeous kids, gives me so much hope. I can come to her with questions, or just to vent, or to laugh, and I know she will help. She makes me feel so lucky because I know that on days I am feeling sad, she has been through all of this before, only she went through it at a time when there wasn't as much knowledge. She really gives me so much hope. And she is freakin' funny (BUTTS!!!!).


I just feel so lucky for everything I have. And anything bad I went through is fine. I would do it all over again, a million times, if it meant I would have what I have now. I can't complain about the past. Had it not been for it, I wouldn'eat be who I am. People might think it is crazy that I am 21 and have been married for 2 years already. Or people might look down on me that I got pregnant at 18. But I would do it all again the exact same way. People search their entire lives for someone to love them the way they deserve to be loved. And I know I have that. I know it. This is the love, that 10, 2o, 70 years down the road, it will be just as strong. And I have such amazing influences and friends in my life. People I can talk to, and complain to, and laugh with and cry with. People that I can talk to until 3 AM, and talk twice a day, for like 2 hours (atleast) a time, and still have more and more to talk about. People that I can call with a quick question, and stay on the phone with for what turns into hours. Or that I can call and quote Family Guy with. And for all I have, I am truly blessed, and I hope that I have expressed my gratitude to the people that have helped me in my life.

"Here's to our problems
And here's to our fights
Here's to our achings
And here's to you having a Good life"

ooooo0000000OOOOOOODear Diary,
I have such an awesome guy! He is like so Mint!! Right now I am listening to Bon Jovi, and Journey and trying to decide which one is more totally awesome... But they are both like so totally ♥tubular♥!!! ooooo000000OOOOO

That was my little day dream sequence. Sometimes while writing on the blog, I feel like a kid writing in a diary. Apparently I am 80's teen, since I can't seem to stop teasing up my bangs... They are HUGE!!! lol.

Here is my conversation today with Michelle:

Me: What is 1+1, Michelle??

Michelle: 2, Mama! My number is 2, too!!!

Me: What is 2+2??

Michelle: (giggling, but trying to look serious) Tutu, Mama..... DANCE!!!!!!! (starts do twirls everywhere)

I thought it was hilarious!

Hope everyone is having a great week!!!

MMMM kit kats!!!

Well, it looks as though the Colts are out of the playoffs. And so I am filling the void with chocolate, more specifically, a delicious Kit Kat bar. Isn't chocolate amazing?!?!

So other then delicious chocolate, and crappy football, life is life. I am actually enjoying the cold weather. Michelle is not as pleased to not be able to go outside and play all the time. But she loves the "snuckles"(snuggles).

Ok well this kit kat isn't going to eat itself!

Amazingness of a 2 year old

I am so amazed everyday at the new stuff Michelle is learning. She says so much that just cracks me up. This morning after nap she told me she needed a diapie change, and said it so clear. Then as we were walking into the living room she told me she was hungry. She will normally just bring me a diaper when she needs to be changed, but has never told me she needed a diapie change. makes me think she is getting ready to potty train more. I know she is going to potty train so fast, but I haven't wanted to start yet. I guess she is leaving me no choice, my baby is growing up. I just love this age she is at so much. She is still so little and stuff, but now she can tell me what she wants. We have a ton of conversations about animals and numbers. She also will tell Mike about how she had fun playing all day and what she ate. She also gets so cute concentrating on stuff. And still, as of now(knock on wood, and yes I really did just do that) there have been no signs of terrible twos!!!


Ok, enough of my shameless mama bragging. Things right now are fairly chill. Mike is working non-stop the next 11 days. I hate when he has no days off. But he does what he has to do so I can stay home, so I can't too upset. I still miss him, and based on Michelle asking 10 times in the last 5 minutes where Dada was, I am guessing she misses him, too. Although she does keep asking to go to his work and eat noodily cheese(mac and cheese) and corn that she might miss the food there, too.

The weather here is starting to cool off a lot. It is always slightly warmer here then NY, so we just enjoyed nice 70 degree weather. That has been REALLY nice to take Michelle out in. I try to go out for a walk everyday, but with the weather getting so cold it is hard to take Michelle out in. But with the great weather we have been able to go walking more. And Michelle has enjoyed being able to go play in the backyard on her swing set. I love the snow, so when it is cold and snowy I am happy. But cold and rainy, or cold and dingy is no good.

Well, she is telling me all about how a whale dives, splashes, swims, and blows air, so I think her and I are going to go pretend to be whales. Hope everyone is having a "splashing" good time!!

Do you ever look around and see stuff you should be doing, but can't seem to work up the energy to get up? That is what I am doing now. I see a couple of Michelle toys I need to put back together, like her train tracks and house, but that stuff is like 5 steps away, and that is just 5 steps too far. I mean, I know they say that doing a little house work isn't going to kill me, but, I just don't feel comfortable taking that chance. So instead I will talk to you nice people. You, what a great person you are!

Things here are going great. Nothing really too new. I love this time, right after the holidays, when things mellow out again.

Well I guess I should get going and get some of this stuff cleaned up.... Or maybe I will just go grab a cookie.

Cookie won!

I can not believe it is 2008!!! Where did the time go?!? 2007 was an awesome year though. On New Years eve, Mike and I were talking about our favorite things we did in 2007.

We took a lot of trips, including mine and Michelle's first plane trip in February, we went to Massachusetts. We flew again in August to Maine. In April we went to NY to visit my family, and my parents watched Michelle overnight so Mike and I could go up to Niagara Falls for the night. That trip, all of us kids, and the grandkids got together to take a family picture as a surprise for my parents. It came out wonderful, if not a little cramped with 7 adults and 10 kids! We went to Cleveland and went to the zoo and to a baseball game. It was great to see the Red Sox beat the Indians.

This year Michelle turned TWO! It is amazing how much she has learned that last few months. She is so fun, and super talkative. One of the best things we did was move into the house we are in now. We moved in February, and it is great. It is closer to Mike's work, and even better then that, the neighborhood is great. We have awesome neighbors, and it is a lot of fun during the Summer to just hang out with them, and watch the kids play.


Our New Years eve was fun. We had turkey meatloaf for dinner(YUM!) and just relaxed and watched tv. We ended up staying up until 5 am watching the movie Tombstone. I love that movie!

I have chocolate chip cookies calling my name(not literally, although.....), and a Michelle snuggled up next to me. Can life get any better? "Look at all the stars. You look up and you think, God made all this and He remembered to make a little speck like me. It's kind of flattering, really." From Tombstone, but it seemed fitting.

I hope everyone has a great 2008, and that they don't feel like a fart in a hurricane!



Quick edit, going to try to add our slightly after midnight video of Michelle on new years eve. We tried to keep her up a little late, but at 8:30, her normal bedtime, she said it was time for night nights and walked over to the gate. She is a woman that loves her schedule. So he ended up just waking her up at 11:55. The video is of her New Year dance.